So, I just wrote the national exam for practical nurses in Canada last week. It takes about 4-6 weeks to get results back, meaning I have 3-5 weeks to go. I’m trying not to stress out about it, because of course worrying won’t help me or change anything now, but – I tend to be a bit of a worrier.
Unlike the tests in school where I would walk out feeling like I had a pretty good idea of how it went, this exam left me feeling uncertain. It’s all multiple choice. Although the correct answer stood out to me clearly on some of the questions, other questions left me trying to decide which of 2 answers was “the most right”.
I’m currently working with my temporary graduate license, and I’m so happy with what I am doing. If I were to fail this test I would lose my temporary license and have to wait until January to rewrite. So although I feel like I probably passed and I need to just stop thinking about it until I get the results back, I can’t help but think about the “what-ifs”.
I also feel a bit guilty because I was so busy this summer with learning another language away from home and working, that I didn’t study as much as I should have. I’ve never been one to spend hours and hours studying for tests, and my marks were very good, but this exam is different. It’s a big deal. Every time I thought about studying, I felt so overwhelmed that I didn’t even know where to start. I did study, but not as effectively as I could have.
I’m trying to stay busy with work and taking time to relax, but the thought of the “what-ifs” are still there at the back of my mind all the time. I know one thing for sure –
if when I pass this exam and get my license, I am going to have a big celebration!
Have you ever had to wait ages for something important and found it difficult to be patient? How did you handle it, and do you have any suggestions for me? I would love to know!